5 years. 5 years ive been dealing with this crap and i cant take anymore. I cant stand "major depressive disorder" more than i could "Bipolar" "PTSD", or any of the other false diagnoses doctors have given me.
I am home alone, and at my wits end. Depression, as you all know, takes over the mind in such ways that make it unbearable to see the good in things.
yet i see the good, and want none of it- it does not appeal to me.
am i making any sense? probably not.
I was recently taken off all my medications but 1... (well, 2 are also being decreased as we speak... they will be gone soon.)
I am not sure this is working.
I am extremely suicidal.
and im sure so many of you have heard this, so many of you have felt this way. and you dont know me, or even know of me.... but i really need help. my therapist told me to stay out of the hospital since i just got out of one.... but i have my phone next to me ready to dial 911... im scared.
thankfully... the pills are locked up.
can someone offer advice? anything? anyone?
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