Yeah, I'm depressed. Shocker there, posting in the depression forum and all that. I feel like a total idiot, because I should be able to handle this by myself, but apparently I can't because I'm sitting here crying like my insignificant problems matter in some way.
First off, I'll just say that this is dumb. I shouldn't be posting once again in some forum that I heard of, that all this should go away, because nothings really wrong, there is no situation that I should be depressed about, I just am depressed. It's killing my friend's relashonships with me, and they're all starting to not even give a darn. Whenever I talk about it, I can tell they're so dissapointed, and I feel like a total jack ass because it's only making it worse on them anyway.
Basically here's my problem: I feel as if everything that's special about me is gone, and all that's left is this washed up person that I am that nobody really likes to be around. I used to have girls talk to me all the time, and now it's like nothing. Nobody even cares anymore, I used to be liked, I used to be complemented almost daily, but know I find myself doing the exact same thing, and everyone's already seen it already, and don't care. Like I'm just a washed up has-been that everyone's had their fun with and are throwing away like a useless piece of crap. I feel like I have no good qualities anymore, like nobody can ever think of me in high regard, that I'm just this average person that's just there and no-one will care about. I haven't received a compliment since christmas, and before that it was june. Go figure. I feel like I'm not progressing at anything, like I'm not getting better. Getting worse actually. Sinking into a dark pit I will never get out of.
So basically, how do I change all this? How do I get my mindset back where it's happy again? I'm so tired of torturing my friends and having them be concerned to the point where they've run out of things to say trying to help. I feel so horrible, and sometimes I think it'd just be better for everyone around me if I was gone... and that people would care if I was gone past two weeks. Nobody. I'm not having suicidal thoughts or anything, it just depresses me. (Obviously)
Oh, yeah, and I'm 17. But you probably could have guessed that. Please help me, I'm pathetic enough already, so there's only room for improvement.