Can you talk to your counselor about
this? You have a wife that obviously loves you, please talk to her. Spouses can be amazing support. They can be your best friend as well.
What are your interests? Myself, I'm a sci fi/fantasy junkie and have found some great online forums to join in conversation. It can help fill the void.
Jon, Co-moderator for Crohn's Disease, Depression, & Celiac Disease forums
"The man who insists upon seeing with perfect clearness before he decides, never decides. Accept life, and you must accept regret." -- Henri-Frédéric Amiel (1821-81), Swiss philosopher, poet