Can someone please help me...
I have been feeling low for a long while now but do not know if it is depression or not. I was wondering if anyone could try to compare what I am feeling with your own experiences/that of people you know to be able to maybe point me in the right direction.
For around the past year I guess I have been feeling down, but recently (I'd say within the last few months) it seems to be getting worse. I am constantly tired and have hardly any motivation to go out and do anything. Often, if I do manage to go out (for example I joined a dance group) I enjoy it when there, but have a huge effort to get myself to go. Before I go I feel panicky and scared of going, although enjoy it every time when I am there.
If I am home alone I often cry - I am even crying now while writing this! This is affecting my relationships, especially with my parents as I rarely appear happy to see them and am always moody and irritable with them, even though I know I am being unreasonable I can't bring myself to do anything else.
I know there are things that have made me unhappy, for example my mum works alot and I tend to look after the home, which has bred alot of resentment. However, I know that I am being so miserable and nasty alot of the time and the people aroundme don't deserve this.
I am living a normal life in the sense that I go to university, hold down a part time job and a relationship. However, I constantly feel down and most of the time struggle to find anything "good" in my life.
I have mostly attributed thses feelings to stress from being at university, which I do not enjoy at all, however am due to graduate in May so will stick it out.
Was just wondering if anyone else can shed any light on what I am feeling? Am I depressed, or just stressed? I really want to seek help on this.
Thank you all so much, and sorry for the rambling - have no one to talk to