I guess all I want is for someone to care.

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Date Joined Feb 2010
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   Posted 2/21/2010 7:11 AM (GMT -6)   
well, where to start... i guess i have felt depression for most parts of my life. i haven't had the easiest.
as i get older it gets worse. i was on citlopram but stopped taking it because i ran out of meds they didn't
seem to be doing anything for me. i feel like i am waiting around to die. i don't enjoy anything anymore,
even things i used to be passionate about. i don't see anything positively. most of the people in my life i have
pushed away with my negetivety. people who i used to be best of friends with no longer talk to me. my mother
tells me it's hard to love me when i can't love myself. and with that i sit there thinking why can't i love myself?
i guess i am just ****ed up in a lot of ways. i feel like i have so much sadness i don't know what to do with it.
it's really hard just to get out of bed and want to do anything. i just got fired from my job because i couldn't get
out of bed. taking life one day at a time is even challenging. most of the time i find myself crying. i want help but
don't feel like i can do it on my own. i've told some people about it but i don't think they take it as serious as i live through this? i have never felt so alone in my life, even my girlfriend doesn't care anymore. I told her i really
needed her tonight but she left me.

It really hurts when you put your trust and expectations into people and they let you down. I guess i just thought
people would care if i told them how i felt. I'm not worth caring about anymore, i am lifeless.

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 2/21/2010 8:24:37 AM (GMT-7)

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Date Joined Mar 2009
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   Posted 2/21/2010 8:33 AM (GMT -6)   
minotauros, oh my friend you need immediate help. you are a precoius human being of this earth. i have been down the road you are traveling-it is black and sad, but in time you will heal. please call an ambulance if you feel at risk. depression sucks hard, but all here at hw understand it well. if you around please post. we are here for you. please understand this. jamie.

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Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 42613
   Posted 2/21/2010 10:28 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Minotauros,
Here are some resources that might help you...

National Suicide Hotline
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.

Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)


I think that you really need some serious counseling.  You need help that is so important right now.  I hope that you are feeling better.  Life is too presicous to just fade away.  Your girlfriend probably left because she couldn't handle it, don't blame her.  This is a hard pill to swallow.  Take care of yourself.  And because you couldn't do it, that means you want to live.  So live life...


Hugs, karen<!-- Edit -->

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