I know that depression goes along with pain and fibromyalgia. I have tried to keep a positive attitude but some days it’s so hard. I do not seem to find pleasure in doing any of the things I used to do. I have tried to act “as if” everything were normal and ok. But I don’t feel that way inside. I want everyone to go away and leave me alone. I don’t want to get dressed, I don’t want to take a shower, or even get out of bed. But I keep trying to keep up appearances and go through the motions. I keep trying to cook supper, go to work, and do the minimal to get by. My house is a mess and that is driving me nuts. But I don’t have the energy to do anything about it.
I am going to the Dr. in 2 weeks so that I can get back on some anti-depressants. I have tried 5 different meds over the years and saw little improvement. I have been off the meds for 2 years because I had gotten sort of discouraged but I am hoping that some of these newer meds might help.
Things are nuts at work and I cannot take any time off but as soon as things ease up, I am going to take a few days off and rest.
For now, I am just trying to breathe and get through the emotional and physical pain.
Fibromyalgia, Chronic pain, anxiety & depression and 5 Herniated disc. (3 in lower back; 2 in neck)