You seem to be wanting to do things to please others. And are worrying about
what others think.. Like your mom, you said that if you don't do perfect, she gets upset with you and when you DO do good, nobody notices, so you quit trying. Well, you shouldn't be trying for others, you should be trying for you. It almost sounds like your excuse not to try. But don't let that happen. Still have pride in what you do, whether it is great or not, know that you tried the best that you could. That is what matters.
You said your friend said that you were beautiful and you thought that you are ugly. Just because we don't like the way that we look, doesn't mean that nobody else does. Beauty IS in the eye of the beholder. And everybody has different tastes.
Start exercising, and start eating healthy. So when you do bing, bing on salads. Foods without a lot of calories.
Get counseling. You need to talk to somebody about
all of this, and may need medication. There is always that chance of a chemical embalance. But you could just be moody. And maybe a mood stabilizer is in order. Talk to your doctor and get hooked up with some therapy. CBT would probably work for you.
I hope that you feel better soon.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies