Most upset one, would you please take a moment and read what you shared? You admitted that you're mad at the world, and if that's how you feel, it's your right to let anyone have it. May I ask, is it the world that's mean to you, or could it possibly be you're just getting a little back of what you're handing out?
You commented about how you can't get any sexual satisfaction. Is that all you want out of a relationship - a quick ride on some bouncy springs? Trust me, you'll be just as empty afterwards as you are now. Making love with someone you love is beyond great, but only because it's a way of sharing your love, not about a climax. There are plenty of methods that don't require anyone else being around to facilitate that end result.
The best place to find people who are as dear and kind as yourself are in places where they too go. Organized religion is no better starting ground. In our little town of just 50,000, we have over 40 churches, so I'm sure you too have many options where you can meet wonderful people.
As far as being upset over still living at home, the only thing that's going to change that is you. If you're not making enough money to support yourself alone, then maybe it's time you get a little more training in some area of work so you can generate a bit more income so you can have a place of your own, but being upset about it all the time only hurts you and that hurts me.
Life is what we make out of it plain and simple. Instead of staying focused on the bad things in life, why not look only towards things that are uplifting and joyful. I never allow one single moment of TV that includes anything bad to ever be on our TV's, ever! If you put junk and crud in your head by the shows you watch, then of course that's what will be on your mind. Instead, why not watch shows that not only entertain, but only lift the heart up with the joys and beauty of this earth? If you're looking for someone to love, I dare say you'll rarely find it at a bar, but I promise you that when you're walking through your local park, you might just meet someone who's there to enjoy the flora and birds just like you are and then together you can enjoy it even more.
It's easy to find the darkness of life, but if you're willing to open the blinds and let the sun shine in, there's also plenty of light that will fill the black holes of your life with so much joy. Good luck, Bob.
After an accident in 1997 crushed the nerves in my pelvis, halfway down the calf and at the fibular head (knee), my left leg slowly started to turn color from the foot up, along with swelling and temp change. Within 2 weeks I was diagnosed with RSD. Within 6 months, I had purple, red and some black area's almost to the knee area. By 1999 I landed in a wheelchair and started a life taking narcotics all the time.
In 2004 I got an Intrathecal morphine pump, and I just got it replaced around a year ago, so now I'm on my 2nd model.
5 years ago the RSD spread to my right leg and has done around 80% of the damage it did to my left leg in half the time.
1 1/2 years ago I went septic, and the infection did go body-wide. After 2 days in the hospital I then had a clot in my lungs. Both should have killed me, but this time I got lucky. Meanwhile I've been battling blood clots for the last 4 years.
Last fall the doctor's decided I needed to have both legs amputated above the knee's, but I decided I could only handle one at a time, so I went with the left leg since that one is a little worse off. The right leg is now black all the way to the knee.
I haven't slept in a bed for over 12 years and have instead accepting the fact that I can only sleep in a chair upright. Since I'm in RSD Phase III, it's still progressing, but I refuse to go on a pity party because those who do, party alone. Thanks to a wife of 27 years and great family and friend support, I'm only half nuts half the time.
Guess that about say's it all. Bob.