Welcome to the forum. I have not words of wisdom for you and I am sorry. I think that in time your son will want to contact you. Maybe a long time away, but it will happen. I am so sorry for your situation.
You have come to a good place. Keep the faith and keep posting. We have to sometimes deal with what life has to offer. Keep on with your life. Try to focus on other things, like maybe a new relationship, of doing the things that you enjoy. I wish for you the very best.
Many hugs, Karen
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