Had to put my dog to sleep

Last Thursday we had to put my dog to sleep.  He was 15 and in pain.  I was devastated.  He followed me around constantly so everywhere I went in the house and every chore I would do he would be right there beside me.  I just cried and cried.

2 days later I was so depressed that we went to the Humane Society in town to look for a new pet.  We didn't find anything there then we were looking on the web and a SPCA 40 min away had some puppies that looked promising.  we drove all the way out there.

My 13 yr old daughter fell in love with a 2 month old Shih tzu/ Rottweiller mix.  We found a very high strung 4 month old black lab/shar pei mix that we loved.  Sh we filled out the paperwork and I guess we just assumed we'd get them.  We took pictures of the puppies to show to family and friends.

Yesterday I called about our application.  Ayla got the puppy she wanted (we pick her up next Tue) but someone had put an application in for the dog we wanted before us.  It was sad.  I mean, I wasn't devastated I thought.  Today though I'm back into my depression.  I know we might be able to find one when we pick up my daughter's but still, the house is so empty and I'm so lonely.

 

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Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder (and about a dozen other things)

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So very sorry Storm , to here about your beloved doggie , that can be so painful .I had to put my kitty to sleep several years ago , she slept with me each night and was my sweet friend , I was lonely and sad .But fear not Storm there aremany , many furry friends that need a good home and lotsa love and you'll willl have one soon I know it .In the mean time cherish your memories with your friend Storm and please try to stay calm and think of how great it will be to have your new puppy soon  ! Good Luck Storm , all the best friend

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hi i am sorry i know how hard it is. when i was a teen i had taken in a poodle from a friend who were moving but couldnt take her. i had two other dogs in the house. one was my grandmas and one was my uncles but this one was mine. she was a old dog but was very good dog. i remember she would get on her hind legs and dance for her treats. well needless to say a year later we had to have her put down because of heart failure. i was devastated. i remember i wouldnt let them take care of her i insisted her being buried with the other family pets in the back yard and i held her in the backseat the whole way home crying.

but i think this saying works well with animals and not just humans. people never die, neither do animals, because they have loved and because they have loved they live on in the hearts of the lives they have touched therefore they live on in their hearts. i kind of say it different then in my signature lol but it means the same thing.

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The only person who can make you happy is you. Be your own self and love who you are because each and every one of you are wonderful for who you are

"No one really dies because they have loved. Because they love they stay in the hearts of the people they have touched so in that their memory lives on." Ghost whisperer-i know corny but this touched me deep down and i see so much truth in it.