Hi there, I know the feeling. I just joined these boards, so this whole this is a first for me too. And the reason I did it, I think, had a lot to do with being lonely.
By best friend has this thing she does. If I tell her I'm just not having a very easy time, and my mind is going to dark places, and I feel lonely, she tells me to take five minutes. Just five minutes. Sometimes, I watch the clock, sometimes I just estimate. After five minutes, she comes back and asks what I want to do. Anything. Watch a movie? Cry? Read? Go somewhere? Do nothing? Lots of times I don't have a clue what I want, so she keeps telling me to take five minutes. I've spent hours trying to figure out a way to cure my loneliness and the general "ick" feeling of depression. But I tell myself to take it five minutes, by five minutes. It makes time as a whole seem much less daunting, and it also gives you a sense of renewal. Like "Okay, I didn't do anything at all in the last three hours. But I still have these next five minutes. So it can change. There is still some hope"
It doesn't always help. But sometimes, it really does.
"For though I cannot fly, I'm not content to crawl."
-- Nine Days