hi dotzie. jamie here. male, 37.
my suggestion is to have a chat with your dr. maybe some medication will help, it does me, and others on this forum. your dr. may be able to refer you to a counsellor on a sliding fee scale. doing the journal is very good, it gets stuff out, and you can read it or let your doc read it so that he/she can better treat you. other things at this time can help also, for me it is walking and music, for you it maybe other things. getting the balance right in life is hard, from what i have read you seem very diligent, albeit nobody is perfect. i am glad that you posted, and i am sure that other members will soon post with other ideas. in the meantime hang in there. with compassion, jamie
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.