This week has been one of nothing but let downs. Monday was my day off of work and my parents argued all night long. My step mom said some pretty harsh stuff that I was shocked by. I couldn't sleep that night, so I just stayed up talking online. Later that night, this guy that I had dated was talking to me online and told me that he was sorry because he had used me just to get back at this other girl - I have severe insecurities with myself so I could do nothing but cry and wonder why people don't like me for who I am. All week long people have been making fun of me in my English class, and I don't know why. They make fun of me for being an A student, and they call me names like "*****" and "dumb *****", even though they don't even know me. My teacher stood right in front of this kid as he said to me "shut up you stupid *****" as I asked a question - and the teacher did nothing, didn't even say a word. What shocks me is I normally get along with everyone. I'm not like the "dorky" straight A student - I am just me, and I try to be nice to everyone. So yesterday I found out that my little brother may have some sort of
schizophrenia or Asperger's syndrome. Other then that I am just waiting on my letter from Flager College. It was sent out on Wednesday, and I still have not recieved it, so I am stressing out. I just get so frustrated with everything and it is hard to keep a focus on anything. It just makes me sick and upset. I just want to curl up in a little ball and cry all night and all day long. And I can't help but notice my food intake - I've been eating so much lately, and I can't stop because I'm so nervous. And trust me, its not helping with my insecurities about myself. I've tried to stop, but I can't. It seems like I can't do anything anymore.