I want to welcome you to the forum & really commend you for thinking about
such a serious issue. Without a doubt, the healthiest choice would be to stop drinking. But, in response to your question about
whether or not you might be alcoholic, there are some really great reference materials out there for teens.
Here's a link to the AA site for teens:www.aa.org/lang/en/catalog.cfm?origpage=15&product=94
The booklet "How to tell when drinking is becoming a problem" might be a good start for you. It is a simple 12 question self-test that you can fill out on your own. If you can answer "yes" to any of the questions, then it's probably a good idea to follow-up with someone who can look into whether there might be some sort of problem. If you have a pediatrician that you already see, that would be a good place to start. If not, your school counselor should have a list of doctors & treatment specialists in your area who work with teenagers.
I want to encourage you that no matter how hard it seems to stop drinking on your own, with help many people are able to stop & can find healthier ways of facing all the stress, problems, pressure & changing emotions that come with being in junior high.
There are a lot of good things waiting for you in this world. There are a lot of good people. It sounds like you maybe don't experience too much of that right now (i could be wrong about
that), but by asking for help & starting to surround yourself with good people who love life & love being around you, things will start to change.
People can quit at any age, whether 13 or 93, there are a lot of stories about
people who have successfully stopped drinking & have gone on to live happy, successful lives. A lot of times it's hard to see when you're still drinking & downing so many caffeine drinks, but later on people say that quitting was the first step to reaching their dreams.
Please take the quiz & then talk to your parents. If your parents are part of the problem, then please talk to a teacher, or if you know your doctor's name & phone number, call your own doctor. There are even medications out there that can help make it easier for people to quit. Your future can be so bright & I just want you to know that I'm pulling for you & wish you all the best!