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   Posted 4/8/2010 3:51 PM (GMT -6)   
about 3 years ago my parents seperated and i now live my dad. when it first happened i was fine and doing really well. it wasnt until about 4 months after that i started to change a bit. it was while i was doing my exams and coursework in school and the holidays after i finished year 9 seemed to have a big impact on my upcoming years. i went from being an average well behaved kid who like most ocassionaly made mistakes and got into trouble, in year 9 to being a complete rebel in year 10. both me and my teachers expected me to get some the grades in my class and i liked it that way because ive always had aspirations. but year 10 started and i seemed to stop. i dropped out of some of my lessons so i could change them to ones that my friends were in so we could chat instead of work. and then about halfway through year 10 my attendance started to become a problem. i didnt go atleast 3 days each week, instead i would just meet up with older friends and drink and do .then i started to skip weeks at a time. it wasnt until half way through year 11, my final year, that i realised i wasnt helping myself. so i tried my best to catch up as much of the work as possible. it didnt work though i only managed to get one subjects work completed about 75% and the rest of my work ws done poorly and no where near complete. at the end of the year i recieved my results and was extremely disapointed with them. i didnt have any of the right grades to go to college and study games design media which still remains my ultimate dream. during the holiday before i started college, i started to become rebelious again. i went to college oon my first day and decided that i didnt like it. so i left on my break and went home. then i decided id give it another go so about 2 weeks later i went back and managed a full day. but after that i quit and wouldnt have been able to go back until the next year. i assumed that i didnt enjoy it because i was being taught things i had taught myself a few ears previously. so i went to wrok at a fish factory. i realy enjoyed that job, because i knew plenty of people there and it allowed me to go out with friends at weekends without having to borrow money from my dad. but unfortunately i wanted to spend money on and have fun when i was supposed to be working. so ieventually got fired. altogether i worked there for aboyut 6 weeks.i dont know why i stopped going because i genuinely enjoyed it. by the time i got fired from there it was october. i got into a relationship not long before i was fired with a girl i had known since i started year 9. i managed to keep the relationship working for 5 months before i became depressed. in the begining of the next year i ended the relationship claiming that i didnt love her even though i did very much, and still do. the only problem with having a girlfriend during that period was that my emotions were too unstable and i was finding myself getting angry around her fro no reason and in the past i have been known to get angry and start arguements or fights with friend so i was scared incase i hurt her. after that i spent a year doing nothing. i ocassionly left my house to get drunk at a friends or if i ran out of coffee and needed more i would go tp a shop. but in about september of that year i stopped eating properly and my weight dropped dramatically and my dad started to get worried. i told him over and over that htere was nothing wrong but i dont think he believed me. then in january of this year i had alot too much to drink and ended spending 2 nights in hospital. that really made me realise again that i wasnt helping myself and that my friends and family were being affcted too. since then i have slowly been getting myself back into a normal routine. and i even have a volunteer job at a local magazine which is really helping me.i still havent been to see a doctor though. and everytime i make an appointment i seem to become depressed and unable to leave the house to see the doctor. i know that the best thing i can do is talk to a doctor. i just dont know how to overcome the depression.

Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 4/8/2010 3:06:27 PM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 4/8/2010 4:04 PM (GMT -6)   
I think that you answered your own question. You know that you have to get to a doctor. I think with some counseling and some self discipline you could go far. You have the potential, you just have to apply yourself. So why don't you do that before you get too old to. Or I should say while you are young. Life goes by fast. And before you know it, it will be too late to change. You have less options the older you get. Put some sense into that head and apply yourself to something. Go back to school. If you had to pay for it you would take it more seriously. So that is an option. I sure did. I tried a lot harder. It can be done. You will get a better job that way.

I hope that things work out for you. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Hugs, Karen
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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