I really don't think you are actually jealous, maybe you envy her situation a little bit, but I think you have it in you to occupy yourself with your hobbies and an imagination to find something to fill the void.
I got a camera a couple of years ago and I carry it into the woods to get photos. I am not really good at it, but the camera is good enough to do it for me. I think it is cool what you do with your photos. I like to paint so sometimes I do paintings from photos. I haven't painted in a long time though. I have all my photos as my screen saver, so I get to look at them often. Mostly family photos, but a lot of nature. I like how you can zoom in on the little delicate wildflowers. I am a mushroom hunter so I get pics of mushrooms too. Pretty cool.
I am glad that you are getting some insight to the situation, but you really dont' seem like the type of person that would be jealous. Though I don't know you very well, I can sense it. I think you wish that you had the oppertunity that she has, but I think you also have the potential to achieve your goals.
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