I think this could be a long one and if it is i'm really sorry. now where to start?........basiclly i feel that i just can't go on any more. In the past i've been told how to find the positive in everything, but at this time in my life i just can't do it. I just feel that i can't go on anymore. I don't know what to do. I've got problems with where i'm living and my life and to two really don't mix. I hate where I am living and at times i'm scared to go out incase i say something to the trouble makers and it makes things worse. We have asked the council to move us, but just keep being told "your have to wait your turn". I even got a letter from GP to try to help things but it hasn't made any differnce. The stress of living here has also started to mess up my health, but the council don't care about that. I live at home with my teenage daughter, disabled father and dog. I am trying to keep down a part time job and look after my father and keep the house going as well as care for our dog. My father does what he can but he can't do much. I'll be 36 this year and honesty feel much older, with aches and pains all over. I had a check up with my DR a few days ago and she told me that my blood results were not good, my diabetus is not under control like it used to be and my sugar levers are high to offten, my liver function test came back high again but she can't work out why and i'm still waiting for my biopsy results to come back to see if I have coeliac disease or not, My blood test for coeliac disease came back positive. Then On top of all this I have just lost a well loved auntie to cancer (3rd time round, she beat it the first 2 times). I just don't know where to turn or what to do. I don't want to put to much on my daughter as she is coming up for her A leavel exams (end of 1st year), and she needs to pass these to be able to continue with them next year and then get into uni.
I hope someone has some idea what I can do to get through this as i'm really feel that i'm at the end of all hope and really feel that I can't go on much longer but I know deep inside that I have to for my daughter, father and by best friend - my dog.