I think you have made some fundimental assumptions here that might be a bit flawed or at least skewed. I have seen horrible things in the midsts of war and I have also seen some of the best. I have seen some the worse offenders and their crimes, but I also see heros everyday. Everyone has had people disappoint them, as it is human to error. But find someone who can come thru most of the time is a pretty good thing, do not hold on to the times they disappoint you. Stuff happens, but also know what your deal breakers are (such as abuse). The wage slave thing have you ever heard of the one belongs where they do good. Whether that is in their paid employment or elsewhere, but please try to win a goal for humanity in that you have contributed to world even if it is just washing a dish it is positive motion to help prevent disease even if it is just one dish. As for me I am going to help as many people as I can in the time I have left. I think a partner is nice (and I would love to have one, but I have been alone for some years now as my disease has advanced to levels that affect intimate activities), but it is not the end all be all to exsistance.
It is apperent that you have lost some hope in humanity or at least several things some pretty darn negative has happen to you. But my question is what are you going to do about
it? Are you going to sit there and suffer or are you actually going to take proactive action on a daily, hourly, momently, etc basis (even if it is just stopping your own negative thoughts) to stop yourself from feeding into this. Please do not allow yourself to get locked down in this negative thought pattern.
Please really think about
getting some help.
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