i feel sad, pissed, depressed.. anything. everything.
i mostly feel stupid. my boyfriend has been out at the park right down the street from my house since 5:00, and he's been hanging out with our good friend who's a guy and some girl. that, alone, pisses me off. and my boyfriend is JUST now leaving. ever since he left, ive been texting him, asking him what hes doing and telling him stupid stuff that makes me look like a clingy, emotional, obsessive freak of a girlfriend. im just scared. and mad because he didn't invite me. but honestly, he's been "sitting there doing nothing" for 4 hours. just now leaving. and i'm even more pissed because who would sit there and "do nothing" for 4 hours at a park? and he was saying, oh, him (our guy friend) and that girl are hooking up, and i texted him back saying "so you're just sitting there, watching." and he was like "yeah."
doesn't that sound stupid...? who sits there and does nothing for 4 hours? he's been doing something.. and if hes been drinking or anything else, he swore to me that we were going to stay sober. and what if he was cheating on me? ugh im so ******* paranoid but it makes me so mad... i cant stand it...
i dont care if anyone replies really. im just venting.. i need someone to talk to.. because i'm lame and stupid and don't have any friends. haha i'm pathetic.