Many thanks to all who have replied to my request. I think I should explain a little more, about my situation, and maybe this will clarify my actions. I became involved with a guy 14 yrs younger than myself, and in turn someone that I work with. So, I am thinking that my actions are trying to be young again, or doing things that I would have 14 yrs ago, so to speak. I believe I may have some anxiety, since I see this person on a daily basis. The situation became more of a FWB type of situation, but I couldn't handle it. Too many emotions on my end, and now it is tearing me up inside. Could these actions just be a mid life type of thing, or really do I need professional couseling? I keep trying to keep it together professionally, when I want to scream my head off in all actuallity. I am sure if the person wasn't in my face all day long, I would be able to move on, but I am really struggling. Every thought is consumed, even outside of my job. I know better than to become invovled in this type of situation, and have been able to turn it down before. But this new, younger person had a different effect on me, and we had a weird connection, dispite the age difference. So I guess there were more feelings on my part, rather than just a "hook up". I hope this info helps with additional feedback. I am not depressed, just need guidance, and I am a very spititual person...wouldn't know it by my actions lately. I just feel lost I guess. Thank you to all who reply.