I agree with Jamie, talk to your doctor. I think that is the best place to start. I too am so sorry for your losses. You ahve been through a lot. I hope that seeing a doctor or a counselor will help you. Get out there and seek this help, as you need the support of a professional. In the meantime keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
Best wishes to you my friend.
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