Hi Tara. This may be a stupid question but are you on anti-depressants? Also, could you get out into the sunshine and fresh air for a bit, sometimes that works wonders. I have been in your place and need you to know, there is hope. Do you have any family or close friends you can talk to? If not, maybe try writing in a journal. Sometimes just getting our feeling out helps. I really don't know what else to tell you Tara except hang on, tomorrow will be a better day. Know that you are important to many here on earth and would be terribly missed. Take care of yourself Tara and maybe treat yourself to a warm, bubbly bath and a funny book or movie.