Welcome to the forum. Yes, Jealousy, the green eyed monster. You have to work on that or it will drive you insane. I use to be jealous, then I told myself that it was only hurting me and that life is too darn short for all those feelings. It hurts ourselves more than anything. I guess what helped me, is I told myself that if it is meant to be it will. And I ignored all of my feelings after that. I made it for 23 years with this man until he died in 2002. So try to talk yourself out of the jealous aspect of it. It is only hurting yourself.
There are often programs to help you get free or low cost counseling. I would check into that. It really is a good support place for a person such as yourself. So I would contact the local mental health system that you have. Also the department of Human services often helps with that. So check them out too. If your income is low enough they will help you.
Best wishes to you. Keep posting. Know that we are all here for you.
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