Hi Sea of Love,
Welcome to the depression forum. You sure do have a lot on your plate right now. Much worry, I see. But these are things that you have no control over, so worrying is just making you more depressed. Have faith that everything will work out okay. Take it one day at a time and try to live in the moment.
As for your sister, I guess she might need to see her pdoc and get on some better meds. It is hard dealing with somebody who is bipolar because they are very moody. They can snap in an instant out of nowhere. And you get the bundt of it. But realize that it isn't her talking, it is the disease.
As for your father, well that is another issue. I am sure that he is struggling with his sexuality. Especially being a religous man. He is going to have to work this out for himself. I know that you don't care if he is gay. But I am sure that he does. I think he needs some counseling on this matter. And only he can do that. So that is another one that you can't control. Maybe say a prayer for him, if you believe in prayer. Try to advise him on counseling, if you think he will listen. It sounds like he is in the middle of his own turmoil. And he will have to work that out.
But as far as you. Yes, I think some counseling would be in order. You could use the extra support right now. It sounds like you have been struggling with these issues for a long period of time and I think you could use a break from it all. You have your own life to live and you need to take care of you. That is most important. So check out some counselors and choose one to go to. You might need medication too, so a trip to your doctor could be a good thing.
I hope that you get all of this sorted out. You sound like a wonderful person.
Please read forum rules. We are not to discuss marijuana on the forum. Not even medical. Which is a shame, but that is the rules. So I have to edit your post. Not that I want to, but it is the rules. I have nothing against it myself. But being a moderator, I have to abide by the rules. Enough said on this topic.
I hope that you start to feel better soon. Remember to take care of you. You can't be there for everybody and fix everybody, but you can help yourself. So hook up with some counseling. Take care of you. Do something nice for yourself. You deserve it.
Hugs to you. Karen
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies