Ohh Sweetie you've been through so much in such a short time. NOBODY deserves the stuff you've gone through at any age! You're not alone I can assure you. You will find so many others that have had problems if not like yours but similar. Being a teenager is difficult in itself these days. Having heart problems and surgery along with the complications has to be a major issue for ya. not to mention trying to fit in with the other kids. And kids can be sooooo cruel. I have a 17 yo daughter, she's a junior and we've recently moved to a new community and she's had major difficulties fitting in.
GOOD FOR YOU!!!! Saying NO is a difficult thing to do sometimes especially when you're trying to fit in. But saying NO will benefit you when you get older, let me tell ya. And with your heart condition, you never know what you're getting. So that was a very wise thing for you to do.
I have to agree with Ralph, you do need counseling and someone that understands what you're going through to help you get through the dreams and at least some of your fears. Help you learn all over again, someone to be a confidant to ya. You've got us and your mom, but you also need eye to eye contact with someone else. You need hugs and security
I'm sure your mom is doing the best she can, finding us is a big step...you opening up to us is a major thing for you I'm sure But together we can make it. But unless one's gone through some of the things you have or have been trained one really don't totally understand. We're hear to listen and give our opinions and support.
Keep us posted hun ((((((((((((( Notears4u2c))))))))))))))
Be well hun