Went to see White Noise at the cinema. **SPOILER ALERT** the first bit tht freaked me because it was similar to what happened to me. After the death of his wife her mobile phone got returned to him he kept getting calls from her phone and it wasn't even on. That was kinda like me getting a txt from steven (before I discovered someone else now had his number). The film went on about how sounds like untuned radio, tv on no channel even rain and electrical interferance can be a way of the dead contacting the living and in the film they were not good ppl either.
So now tht I'm back home the film is playing on my mind as I can pick up faint noises and slight frequecy changes with my ears. Noises like the computer makes when on, lights make, a tv on mute makes are now making my sense of paranoia go into overdrive.
But othe than this I am still very close to giving up coz i already feel dead without my steven being here for me. Ah well I will beg again but probably still be here tomorrow.