why keep trying? because you deserve to be happy. you have to make your own happiness and the only way to do t hat is start to do things that can make you happy. if you think losing weight would make you happy then do it. you are loved you just dont realize it yet. in order for someone to love you you have to love yourself. i know how you are feeling trust me i do. if i let everything i have been though get me down i would not be here today. i will explain some.
my mom was a drug addict and alcoholic who chose her addictions over us. dont get me wrong, she loved us and made sure no harm came to us, but she also stole from us, and put us through hell. all my uncles were alcoholics and drug addicts also. in the last 5 years i have lost all but 2 uncles( and one i have no contact with cause of his alcohol addiction and the fact he tried to kill my mom) and one sister. i have alot of cousins but they are all in trouble with the law or just dont care. i have had one cousing on the news twice, once for hosatage holding and one for a high speed chase. i watched my grandma, who raised me, die from heartache. she had diabetes and died of a heart attack but i think it was a broken heart. a week shy of a year later my grandpa died. this past november, three days before thanksgiving, i watched my mom die a horrendous death thanks to liver disease.
plus the fact i dont have many friends and i get lonely sometimes i bounce back from all my problems and still keep a smile to my face. if i can overcome that then i am sure with our help you can feel valuable. i know it is hard and im sorry to be so blunt but you really need counseling and then look in the mirror every day and tell yourself you love yourself. come hun you can do it. you are a very special person and im sure there is someone out there that will love you but you have to love yourself first.
The only person who can make you happy is you. Be your own self and love who you are because each and every one of you are wonderful for who you are
"No one really dies because they have loved. Because they love they stay in the hearts of the people they have touched so in that their memory lives on." Ghost whisperer-i know corny but this touched me deep down and i see so much truth in it.