Thank you for sharing this tough story with us. In some ways I feel that we kind of have a similar story. My parents divorced, and my mom is now with a horrible boyfriend and my dad is dead. I don't want to get into to much detail because this isn't about me, its about you. But, I have thought about as well. . And I even sat in bed telling myself that nobody wanted me around anymore. The truth is, there is someone out there that needs you and wants you here. I can understand how much your life isn't working for you right now and it's super hard to even realize that some how it could get better. I never thought mine would, my dad, my grandma, my friend, my co worker, and my cheer coach are all dead and my mom is a huge drinker with an boyfriend who is verbally abusive to me and my brother. I really didn't think that my life was even worth fixing and that nobody wanted me here, not even my boyfriend. But I'll share my thought process on how I get through eachday. You have to understand that this is just a small part of your life, and there is tons more to come if you play your cards right. Parents can make the first step of life very hard believe me. But you have to look more to what can happen after your done with this part. You can go off to school and become something you can choose to do and get money and love for doing it! And then you can find someone to spend the rest of your life with, and if you can't find someone that wants you here and alive now, think about your future wife walking around right now. She might not know you yet but you are going to be the one she falls for and makes her happy. With you here, you can shape not only your life but her's as well. And you can even have children. You can have children that are half you and your wife and you can raise them the right way, not how you are treated now. That can be your break on making more impacts on lives that don't even exist yet. If anything parenthood will give you the opportunity to learn what not to do and what to do. Your always worth being here Kyle...even you think it now or not. Life is going to kick you down hard, it happens to all of us, but know that this isn't all of your life right now, its just part. I hope this helped and keep letting us know how everything is, we all care alot about you already
I had to edit your post per rule number 1. No discussion about suicide, self harm or illegal substances.
Other than that Beautiful Glass, this was a beautiful post.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 5/26/2010 10:14:40 AM (GMT-6)