I had an alcoholic mother and two sisters and they have all passed. I do think that it can have something to do with your depression. And not to mention fetal alcohol syndrome. My mother was drinking and taking pills when she was carrying me and got me drunk when I was just little so that I would go to sleep. Good mother eh????
And not to mention what you go through growing up. The emotional stress of it all. The fighting, and drinking. My mother stopped drinking, but was into pills after that. She was a paranoid schitzophernic and manic depressive (bipolar). So she was very hard to live with. But I made it, and don't have to deal with her anymore. I had cut ties from her in my early 30's. I had to. The stress she caused me was making me physically ill. I ended up being a diabetic and having to check my blood sugar everyday. But eventually it has all been diet controlled. But I haven't had the stress that I was having before.
I am sorry that you will be alone this weekend. Try not to anticipate the worst. Maybe it will turn out okay for you. I am glad that you are going out with friends on Friday night. I have no plans for the weekend. Normally everybody would be mushroom picking, but they are done already. We had a very early season this year. That was cool because it was good for the locals. We have many tourists from other states that come to pick our wild mushrooms. So I am kind of glad that they were early this year. Though sad because I would still be going out in the woods if they weren't. I can still go for walks though with my dogs.
My DH is rototilling the garden today. It is the first tolerable day in five days. We had heat so bad that you couldn't stand it. Our thermometer said in the mid to upper 90's the other day. It was so hot and humid. But I plan to plant a few bean plants this year. Just enough to eat out of the garden or to cook up with a couple of meals. I like the french filet beans. They are really sweet and good steamed.
Well, I am rattling Aurora. Par for the couse for me. I haven't been on the computer much because it was too hot in this room. But now it is more comfortable, other than an occasional hot flash, and I am able to sit here longer.
Come on the forum this weekend. Like I say, I don't have any plans, but that doesn't mean that we wont go and see the grand kids. I barely make plans, usually spur of the moment. lol... Otherwise I would probably stress about
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