Hey guys, sorry about posting another thread so soon after my last one.
I went to my pdoc today, and since the medicine I'm currently on isn't helping my depression at all, she suggested a lot of things that she thinks are going to help me. When I say A LOT, I mean a heck of A LOT. I don't want to go too far into it, but my treatment in the near future is going to consist of everything- a lifestyle change, diet change, excercise change, supplements, lab testing, sleep, and not to mention 2 different medications for mood stabilzation and concentration! I know that I'm only in the beginning stages of treatment, but this is wayyy to much! I have to work hard for everything- I don't want to have to work hard for my stupid life on top of everything else! Plus, one of the medications has serious side effects if it's not used properly; which means I can't eat any new foods, or really do anything new to my body until it gets used to the meds, if it ever does.
I know I'm the one who wanted treatment in the first place, but it feels like all of this is just being thrown at me at once! Plus I hate putting unnatural things into my body, even if they do help my moods. I don't know.. But I'm pretty sure that I'm going to quit treatment. Maybe I can just conquer this on my own, and if not... Well, it'll not be anything I haven't lived through before. It's tiring to be searching through your thoughts and your head all the time, and it's not helping at all! I've lived with this all my life; it might get worse, granted, but I'm beyond caring if I can handle it or not.
Thanks for reading.. Hope everything is going well with you all.