Welcome to the depression forum.
What I am reading is not good. First of all, nobody makes him drink. He does that on his own. and you are not responsible for his moods. He owns them too.
As long as you stay with him, you will be unhappy until he changes. There is no excuse for the verbal abuse. And I worry that it will get worse.
I know that you don't want to leave him. You feel that he is your sole existance, but that is not true. You are your own person and deserve to be happy. I am sorry for your situation, but if you stay, you have to continue to live with this. You both could use some counseling. I think that you should go to it. It is a great form of support and you will learn self confidence. Think about
it. You are not happy, and you wont be as long as he continues to drink and be selfish.
I hope that this helps some. Probably not what you wanted to hear, but it is the truth.
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