hi guys, this is yet another round of depression for me, and you know what i hear everytime? 'it will all get better'
who else hears that, and thinks, well, you know, it just might. and next week, month, year, lo and be hold, nothing is better.
i try and see the positives in my life, but there are none, and some of you will firstly think, well surely there are some, but im sorry, there isnt. work is as bad as ever, dealing with bosses and bad customers, i have just had to move back into my parents newly broken home, with my 'father' that i have forever hated, im trying to deal wit that as well now, im still single, and i went out for the first time in a long time last night, thought i was going great with a girl, and i ended up running away from the club and ended in hospital cause i was going to end it all last night, all cause everything built up, and i thought i was going great, only to be rejected for the billionth time.
i just read someones post 'why live' and i wholy and soley agree with you, freinds(what little i have) family drs and councillors all give me the million reasons of not killing myself, but none can answer my question of why live.
i hate it, i really do, and im at wits end, im at a really bad place in my head and dont know where to go from here. is there anone else like me? :'( i need to know if i am really alone in this world