Hey Liveyoung, welcome to the site and I'm really glad that you found your way to us. I know all too well and personally about depression, disconnection, and the lack of understanding from the people around you. I have felt this way for the majority of my memory, I am 24 now, and I have only in the past week finally gotten the courage...or motivation...or whatever it is that you need to do something that you're afraid of...to actually go and see a doctor(made a post about it). I can tell you this for sure, you will be SO so relieved when you do tell your parents exactly how you feel, and when you are finally up to seeing a doctor. You most certainly may have some things that need working through...but you are only adding to them by not addressing them. Hehe, if you think that leaving a message on this forum made you feel a tiny bit better, if for no other reason than to get things off your chest, just imagine when you are talking directly to an understanding, knowledgeable, and helpful professional. I know you have it in you to get to that point, as other have said, maybe your school counselor can help to get you there. My honest suggestion, if I were you, knowing what I know now...I would not add the extra stress of the "not knowing" and feeling exponentially worse by the day. Coming here is a great first step to where you want to be, all you have to do now is put your other foot on the next one, that is the only way to do it. I hope you feel better and are able to find a way to talk to your parents, and keep us informed as to how you're doing, you are never without people who care.