Had my cousin and her friend staying with me overnight until today. We had a great time, went out for a meal and then came back to the house and had a drinking session.
I know the drink wouldn't have helped but now tht they are away and the house is quiet I've came down from the ever temporary high and feel pretty suicidal.
Everything i seem to live for seems to just be things which don't last I need something more perminant as a reason to live not things tht disappear coz i can't take anymore.
"I've woken now to find myself, In the shadows of all I have created, I'm longing to be lost in you, Wont you take me away from me." (evanescence "away from me")
"It rips your heart out and leaves you bleeding with a smile on your face." (HIM "and love said no")
"Happy hunting you double faced carnivore" (Nightwish "Romanticide"