Don't know where to start

Hi all,
I believe this is my first post over here. I have chron's (taking many med's) and on top of that I am taking effoxor for depression.

All has been going okay for me until lately when the job situation maybe getting worse. You see right now I have benifits and my wife is going to loose her job and possibly take a job out of state which means that I will have to quit my job as well. This is starting to make me think about the worse things that can happen like getting sick with no medical insurance. Sometimes I just want to say the hell with it all and with all the crap that is starting to come my way, sometimes I feel that I may just loose it. It is hard to see anything that is good in this world any longer. Can someone help me see what's good in this world? What will I do if I loose my job and need med's without medical insurance?

Thanks for reading,
mistdancer