Ok, let me start out by saying I have really missed this site! I remember going on here about a year ago, posting about my friend who was suicidal...anyway, that's not why I'm here this time.
I used to intentionally self-harm - I cut a few times, and after getting over that I got in the habit of biting and bruising myself. Now, though, I've successfully gotten over both of those things thanks to amazing friends and especially an amazing boyfriend. I was researching self-harm online, however, and there were two that caught my eye: picking at the skin and interfering with the healing of wounds.
I have acne all over my arms, and I have had it for quite a few years now. I think around two years ago, I started picking at it, in hopes to make it go away. It never did, but I kept picking at it and scratching off the scabs (not really caring if they bled). I still do, to this day, and I've never really thought anything of it. It looks kind of gross, but it doesn't hurt and it really doesn't bleed that much.
I researched a little online about those two forms of self-harm, and they kind of fit what I do. I even realized that I do feel kind of relieved after I do it, and I tend to do it when I'm stressed (I do it when I'm not stressed, too, but I almost ALWAYS do it when I am).
I don't feel like I have a mental disorder, but this kind of worries me...and depression and anxiety run in my family.
What do you think?