Hi my name is Amanda Im new to this. Ive been depressed for a about
a year now. I am in highschool i have two friends both of which graduated this year. I know Ive already lost them because of this.
I feel very alone, my parents and I dont get along and I have no friends. Things arent going well, I cant talk to my parents because I cant show weakness in front of them. Someone said I should go talk to someone like a psyciatrist but I physically cant get to one, same with a physician.
Im losing hope of things getting better. Ive been having anxiety attacks and nights that I cry myself to sleep. Ive been trying to work to keep my mind off things, training horses spending as much time away from home as possible because my parents argue all the time then turn it on me. its better when Im not home. I was bullied badly in elementary school all the way to highschool now (on academic scholarship at a private school), I was beat up everyday and it seems that this keeps coming back to haunt me.
I havent really slept well in about
2 months because I get terrible nightmares every night which seems to make things worse
I keep telling myself that if I can hold on until college I will be able to get better.
I do not know what else to do
Sorry for rambling not sure if this made much sense,
Post Edited (Barngirl425) : 6/14/2010 8:20:27 PM (GMT-6)