Welcome to the depression forum. What you did wasn't all that bad. Like you said, it was curiosity. And I wouldn't feel guilty about
If you really feel bothered about
it and can't come clean, as they say, with your boyfriend, how about
talking to a counselor? That might be good for you to do. And like you say, discussing it on here helps too.
I wouldn't worry too much about
it, you have nothing to feel guilty about
. You might be more emotional since your father passed, (and I am sorry about
that) and it might be making you worry more.
I hope that you do feel better soon. I am glad that talking about
this helped. Today is chat day on the depression forum, so feel free to check the chat room. Maybe you would like to talk to somebody there.
Take care my friend, and keep posting.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies