Hi, thanks for all you're replies.
Karen, you're right, i do feel like i was kind of the last person to know even though we're supposed to be really close. But she did tell me how i felt really distant and that she could tell i felt like that too, which is kind of true.
And usually if i do have issues with my boyfriend, i can always talk to him about it but recently nothing has really come up that's bothered me in that relationship, so all's good there.
And it does kind of feel like I was...well...the safety net. Like she had this new "more-than-friend" relationship with this girl... (I'll just nickname her Emma) and had her friend who i felt like was replacing me (i'll nickname her Jenna) And it felt as though, as soon as Jenna told her that she didn't approve of her relationship with Emma...she came running to me, because she knew I couldn't disapprove of it. And she kept telling me "How come they can't be as supportive as you?"
And I can't help but feel that very statement is going to trap me into this whole mess again. But to be honest, I'm lonely, and I feel as though I have no where left to go. I know it's not necessarily going to be the best for me, but that's all i've ever known.
I think I do just need to calm down and not think about the past and let things go as they do and remember that things are more important...