Let me just set the story. I'm 15. I spent a year with a boy who I gave everything to. And then a girl comes along and takes him, literally takes him. And yes, that hurt, verry much, and messed me up inside- for a 2 weeks all i did was cry and sit in my room, and when i had to go to school, i would continue to cry. My school work went down because I was so unhappy. But thats not it. This girl made all her friends bully me. They shout stuff at me, they write stuff about
me, and they get my ex to say stuff about
me. Then tell me I'm worthless, scum, useless, pathetic, that I should die and various other things. I tried not to let it get to me. But it really hurts having to go to school everyday and having to face it, knowing whenever they see me they laugh at me, or whenever I see 'him' it hurts knowing he doesn't give a darn about
everything we went through.
Things at home aren't too good either. I argue with my mum all the time. We have physical fights, and I normally end up in my room wishing I was dead. My mums boyfriend makes it clear what he thinks of me. They call me a slapper and a slag. I'm not innocent, like I do say stuff back, but these are my parents saying this stuff to me. And parents are meant to be the ones who help and make things better, but mine constantly tell me I'm worthless and stupid. I'm starting to belive it after all these people telling me I am.
I tried standing up to the girls at school. But it backfired, and I ended up being hurt so so much. And I ended up in hospital. I promised myself then that things were going to change, and they did. Things were looking up for a couple of days.
But now it's all going downhill again. I feel empty. Useless. I feel like theres no point living.
I actually do.
I want to feel happy. I want to be having a nice time with my friends, but I can't tell them anything really, they would think I am crazy. I guess I am a bit crazy.
I'm scared I'm going to do something stupid.
I think I need advice.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 6/21/2010 2:22:20 PM (GMT-6)