I love your name. Welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. You have come to a good place.
I didn't know it when I was growing up, but my older sisters were very jealous of me. It was a wierd situation. They went to foster homes, and I was adopted by my grandparents. I was only four years old when this happened. My mother was an alcoholic and had many mental issues.
I got treated badly by my mother too because she had to give me up for adoption, though she was still in my life. She was very jealous of the situation and took it out on me. My older sister use to call me the b word. I loved her so much and she didn't love me because she was so jealous. But going to a foster home and waiting for your mother to come and get you when she never is, is hard. So I can understand that now. Where I couldn't before because I was so young. It just hurt. And she would steal things from me when she came to visit. I guess that is becasuse she didn't have anything.
We grew closer when we were grownups. But the sibling years were very difficult. Things will change in time. I bet if it come right down to it, your sisters really do love you. They just aren't showing it right now.
Work on your self esteem. Get into some counsleing. That really does help. You have somebody that you can talk to about
anything. Keep posting here too. We are all here for you.
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