i everybody, I just registered today and still not quite sure how this works but here it goes
Im currently going into my Freshman year in Highschool and this past year has been hell for me. Going into my 8th grade year of school was the hardest point in my life because of a tragedy that i never expected. My best friend Jake committed suicide. i had met Jake through one of my other best friends. Jake and her would have been together for a year today. Anyway, Jake was forced to move to Canada with his mom although his dad lived here in Michigan. After about 2 months, Jake had enough and wanted to be free to make his own decisions, afterall he was 17. Me and him would talk for hours on end and it was mostly just nonsense about life but one day he had asked me if he could date Rachael. His reasoning for asking was because he was too afraid to go it alone. If he did something to make Rachael upset or angry, he didnt want it to affect our friendship. After i spent about an hour explaining to him that nothing he ever did could make me never want to be friends with him, Rachael texted me with "amazing news". 2 weeks later we got the news. Jake was moving and there was nothing we could do to keep him here. His mother had said that unless he planned on marrying Rachael, he could not stay here. he had done the funniest thing ever by proposing to Rachael with a ring he got out of a quarter Machine. Unfortunatly his mom still didnt allow it and they moved away.
The following weeks after hearing of his death, i didnt talk to anybody. Not my parents, My best friends, nobody. I didnt feel as if they would understand a silly child like me.
Today the only thing you would see me doing would be smoking cigarettes and even then its few and far in between. I guess the point of me writing this would be, is anything im feeling or doing normal considering the circumstances? Have any of you ever experienced anything like this or done the same?
I am sorry my friend but we aren't suppose to talk about suicide, self harm or illegal drugs. I hope that you can understand, this is in the rules.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 6/22/2010 2:39:48 PM (GMT-6)