You aren't nuts and what you are feeling shouldn't be discounted by anyone. You will have people in your life to tell you "get over it", "stop whining", "snap out of it". What you need to realize for yourself is that you don't have to feel this way. If you have depression, it isn't just that you are sad and you just can't get over it. You honestly have a medical disease, like cancer, heart disease, or diabetes; not just a mental problem. I grabbed this off of the WebMD website, it can explain it more succinctly than I can:
What is the link between serotonin and depression?
"There are many researchers who believe that an imbalance in serotonin levels may influence mood in a way that leads to depression. Possible problems include low brain cell production of serotonin, a lack of receptor sites able to receive the serotonin that is made, inability of serotonin to reach the receptor sites, or a shortage in tryptophan, the chemical from which serotonin is made. If any of these biochemical glitches occur, researchers believe it can lead to depression, as well as obsessive-compulsive disorder, anxiety, panic, and even excess anger."
My point is, you can't cure yourself or snap yourself out of your depressed state. If your body isn't producing the hormones it needs to to regulate your mood. If you haven't already, go to a doctor. If you are being treated by a doctor with a medication it may not be an effective dosage or the right type of antidepressant, there are several classes that have different effects in the brain.
Someone who doesn't suffer from this disease can't possibly know the hopelessness and helplessness you feel and why you can't just get over it. Some doctors don't even get it, which is why you need to find one that is educated in dealing with this disease. You aren't alone even though it feels like it right now. When you get the depression under control everything else stops being so hard, especially school. If you need someone to talk to HealingWell is a great forum, and people here truly want to help.
Pentasa- 4 g q day; 1/08; Percocet
Remicade 1st infusion 7/24/08
Ultram ER 200mg; omeprazole 40mg; Xanax-ANXIETY; Effexor ER 150 mg
Hope this clears up soon, I want to start having babies!