My wife was raised on a lesser of childhood, her mother and father married when she was three, divorced shortly after. I am not truly certain if she is a true daughter of her father, and I think she thinks the same. I have always tried helping her with her past insecurities, but nothing really gets discussed much. I do have a feeling as well, that her past is feeding her selfish drive to advance in the world. I really can not do much but hope that she sees a bit clearer at the end of the tunnel. I do not wish to leave and I enjoy her company. I wish we could talk of such things in person.
She is helping me in the job search. Though I don't think it is for the right intentions. She is back on the panic wagon, so to say, and most likely thinks that I am going to quit my job before I get the chance to find a replacement. With the treatment I receive, one button too many very well could be the terms of my surrender. However I am not a quitter, I will put my time in rather or not if I enjoy the time there, and head home.
I am envious of my wife. Naturally attractive and very booksmart. Of coarse she has an office job. She makes her own schedule, to fit in anything whether that be school, an appointment, or anything. Makes great money and has a great relationship with her employer. Something that I want. However that drive of hers is what is killing me. She somehow got them to let her stay on during her internship, of 6 months non-stipend work, to work roughly 15 hours a week. Placing all of the pressure on me to get a good paying job to support the two of us for six months or longer depending on how long it takes her to establish a nutritional position.
Well, if I lose my job, I am pretty sure it will be quite some time before I get another one. Trust me I will most likely take the first one offered and go into the same cycle routine of BS since I couldn't take the time to find a position that fits me.
I would really enjoy the office job answering phones. It is a simple job, good pay, and usually the position always has something to keep you busy. NO finding work, or worrying no one will buy your services or product. Simple, necessary, and well, only filled by the ladies.
I do like the idea of getting out and going to the place in person scenario. Will have to give that one a try. However larger companies now do all of there screening through the web. If they post a job online, they do not want you coming to their office, been there done that.
Thanks for all the comments everyone, sort of cheering me up a bit.