This sounds like anticipatory anxiety. Yes you are projecting problems. There are people that would help you if you had to call 911. I am sure that somebody would get a kennel to take your dog in if something happened. In fact that is something you could do, is look up some numbers of local kennels and maybe call a couple and ask if they usually have avaliablity.
There are some things in life that we just can't control. And it isn't easy not to worry about them. But we have to have faith that all things will work out okay. Losing faith is not good. So try to hang on to the idea that things are going to be okay.
You have said that the evenings are the hardest times for you. Coming home to an empty house. Know that this is normal for somebody with anxiety of being alone. Try to think of things that you can do in the evenings so you wont have so much time on your hands. Do any of your friends have time in the evenings, to bad you didn't have a group of friends that liked to play cards or something. Things that people do in the evenings. Are there any night classes around you?
Try not to let that one extra day of your son being away get to you. Out of two weeks, one day isn't that long. Try to get use to the idea of it and hopefully it wont bother you so much.
Aurora, I can't remember if you ever mentioned if you go to counseling or not. But I think seeing one while your son is gone would be a good idea. That would also give you something else to do to use up some of your time while he is gone. I am sure that they could help you with the emotion of lonliness. So give it a thought. But in the meantime, you know that we are all here for you. You really need that social contact. I hope that you find it.
PS You might want to read some on the anxiety forum because it seems you do have a lot of anxiety about your son leaving. They might have some suggestions for you over there too.
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