It was a stupid fight we had. Really stupid. When he announced he was joining the ARMY, I had just been discharged. I told him how to get past boot camp, and told him I did not want him to go in. It was only because I wanted to protect him, instead I lost him. As far as grief counceling, I tried that, and at least accepted the death now. Well somewhat I have. I go once a month now. I was put into it after I jumped down my primary care doctors throat and mentally shut down right in front of him. He brought up the topic of the war two weeks after we got the news. He put me on depression medication and put me into counceling. I apologized about a half year later and told him why I had a break down. He told me if I had told him, he would of handled it differently. The only reason why the councelor even knew what happened is the doctor told her exactly what he said and I said. She figured out that I was fine til he brought up the topic of war, then I had that breakdown. So she knew it was war related, and remembered the recent state wide coming home event for a soldier's remains and maid the connection. One of my older brothers was in Iraq too, at the same time. With permission from the president we had my older brother escort my younger brother and his k9 partner's remains home and an agreement not to ship my older brother back out. I am now off of my depression meds, but I think it is time to put me back on it but I work to much taking care of my grandmother to be able to go to my doctor. She has Alhemiers and Dementia.
DX: Wegener's Disease, Migraines, Diabetese Type II, PCOS, Lactose Intolerant, Benign Heart Murmer, Depression, Asthma, Asperger's Syndrome, Necrotizing Gramultous Inflamation in eye, A.D.D., Acid Reflux, Tumor Behind the Eye, Carpal Tunnel, Fibromyolgia, Clasterphobic, Arthritis
Medications: Tri Nessa, Percocet, Metformin, Prilosec, Protonix, Zantac, Advair, Cingulair, Albuterol, Calcium + Vitamin D, Pro-Air, Pepcid, Rolaids, Zofran, Compuzeen, Refresh Plus Eye Drops PRN: Epi-Pen, Albuterol Nebulizer, Benedryl
Undergoing Radiation Taking Lorazepam (Ativan) on Radiation Days