My life is such a mess at the moment I just don't know how to handle it :(
Some of you may remember back in May I posted saying that an old friend of mine, who I was looking after had passed away, and that I had been giving her end of life care. Well her rememberance service is coming up in the next few weeks.
I just feel so down and tearful all the time. The smallest of small thing can just put me in tears. I've had depression before (15 years ago when my mum died, and again 8 years ago when my brother died), but this feels different. I lost 3 loved ones in the last year, and this is really starting to get me down. I've not lost interest in things, I still go around doing my every day things, I just feel so low, and feel that I need to put a brave face on all the time (even if the smile is fake). My daughther is being great, and she always seems to know how i'm feeling even without me telling her.
I'm just fed up with feeling so low all the time :(
I'm a little worried about telling my doctor incase she puts me on more medication. I am diabetic and have unactive tyroids and at the end of May I was told that I had coeliac disease as well.
Can Anyone please give me any advise as to how I can get though this and not feel so low and tearful all the time. I have a job interview on thursday and really need to pull myself together before then. I guess I a little worried about woring with children again as well as the last 2 people I have worked for, caring for them, have passed away, my last job was end of life care, and the one before was a disabled little girl.
Can someone help me please