Hi. I've been having emotional problems for the majority of my life. My childhood wasn't that amazing because my dad was away for a few years and I didn't have many friends at all, and being adolescent isn't great either. You see, my dad was away because there were no jobs in Michigan (where I lived) and he got a job in Texas, so I spent my days crying for the most part.
And then we moved to Texas. My family and I have been living here for near 3 years. We left behind my brother, who is age 21.. Another reason I'm sad, I haven't seen him for about
3 years. He's really important to me. But now that I live here, I just feel like I don't know WHO my dad is any more. I don't know who my family is. I don't know where my home is. I don't know who my real friends are.
Not only that, but recently when I went to someone's birthday/slumber party, their brother tried to rape me. Now I'm suspicious that everyone is trying to hurt/rape me. Even my own family, my own father..
And then it hit me: How terrible the world is, how much bad there is, and how there IS no good, everything good is fake and just an illusion. That's how I think
I don't want to live anymore. I think that no one actually loves me, that everything I know is a lie. I think that everyone is trying to hurt me, and I can't take it any more. This sounds really stereotypical, but I literally cry myself to sleep. Everything is overwhelming, and no one understands me. I don't deserve to be understood.
I just want someone to talk to. Someone that will help me just get through this. Please?
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