Welcome to the HealingWell Depression Forum. I am glad that you have joined us.
I had to edit a lot out of your post as we are not allowed to discuss suicide, self harm or illegal drugs on this forum.
I guess you probably expect me to tell you to get help for your depression and your amphetamine addiction. And I am. You are sixteen years old and you have a lot going on at this time. You are young, I am sure that you have heard that a lot. But you are at that age when you need to be thinking about the future and not death. You sound intelligent enough to want to do something with your life. And now is the time to start discovering what your interests are.
I suggest you talking to a school counselor or a profesional mental health person. Like a psychiatrist or a psychologist. This is really important at this time.
Please call somebody when you are feeling this way. A crisis line though mental health would be a good place to start. Life is too prescious. You are young. You do the math.
I hope that you keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
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