Welcome to the HW Depression Forum, you will find yourself amongst friends here who are caring, thoughtful and helpful, so I am pleased you found us.
I am sorry you are going through all of this alone, the night I was diagnosed with breast cancer, when I got the call from the doctor, I was alone also as my sisters and parents lived about
one and a half hours drive away from me and when I rang them, not one of my three sisters could get in their car and drive up to put their arms around me and comfort me, my son was away at the time and my daughter lives overseas and my husband was at work. But three of my good friends could rally around me and I was so thankful for them. But I virtually fought the breast cancer on my own with just my rock, my husband for support. The family all visited me in hospital but none could drive the distance to my house to see me post operative.
But anyway that is enough about
me, do you have any friends that you can confide in or maybe neighbours? Have you tried to ring your brother for support and ask him about
what you can expect? Maybe you should sit your son down and tell him the whole story or perhaps that could be a task for your husband to do.
I am sure you will cope with the diagnosis whichever way it goes, you are strong and you have all of us on here to support you through it. So please don't let yourself get too depressed over it because that won't solve anything. Hang in there and let us know how you go with the second set of test results.